Friday, April 16, 2010

A mom's fight

NOOOO NOOOO NOOO I will not accept that he won't come back to me. I can't . As I posted yesterday the feeling of complete overwhelming sadness and being lost got worse when we received the news that the neurologist felt that there was very little chance for Cody to wake up, I have noooo words that can describe how devastated I was . He just needs time. I know he knows i'm there, he moved his jaw and it looked like he tried to swallow , his blood pressure goes up when I talk to him so I can only do it when they are doing things to him since he doesn't like it when they mess with him!! This has to mean something!!! I refuse to believe that these sign are not Cody. The girls have been reading me the posts from yesterday and I can't stop the tears from rolling down my cheeks, I ve cried buckets of them , GOD IS GOOD and the prayers are definetly being felt, but don't use them on me PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE give them to my little man. I can't lose him. Thank you Brenda Almond for the painting that Cody did of Christ. It's sits by his bed. My soul is weary but my faith is strong, the Lord is the only one I will allow to tell me that Bubba is gone. PLEASE PLEASE keep praying he needs them sooooo very much right now. The gift that God gave me 20 years ago is touching thousands of lives and it truely amazes me. I always believed in God's power but seeing it is an amazing experience. We love each and every one of you. Thank you for what you are doing for us.


  1. Alicia, as a mom, I'm crying buckets with you. This has to be so difficult to go through. I am praying "without ceasing"...and I mean that. It's hard to think about anything else. I do believe that there is nothing stronger than the power of prayer and the mighty God we serve. My human nature makes me feel so helpless. Maybe that's how God wants me to feel - because I am helpless without Him. Love you, Annette

  2. Alicia,
    Witnessing your faith is amazing. We are still sharing tears together. Our prayers are continuing. We love you all.

  3. Alicia,

    We are praying for Cody, our church is praying, I spoke to a lady that I work with who's husband is the preacher at a church here in Enid, they have Cody on their prayer list, I heard from another co-worker that they were praying for him last night at the Cowboy Church. Remember Matthew 18:19-20
    "Again, I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. For where two or three come together in my name, there am I with them."

    We are all praying in agreement! Keep the Faith!

  4. Alicia, my heart aches for all of you at this time. The girls and I have never come together to pray like we are now. We believe if any man can fight this, it's CODY JOE! I cannot put myself in your place but I know the mother-son relationship is so strong and special. I know Cody's hearing you. I will not doubt our LORD and his ability to heal. Wish I could do something to help you but all I can think to
    do is pray. We all Love you, Kim, Ronni, Kathryn

  5. Alicia, I have tried to find the right words to say, but then the tears well up in my eyes and I lose what I was going to say. I just want you to know that I can promise you Cody does hear you, all of you. I was in a coma for 3 months, and I did hear what was going on around me. The coma is the best way for his body to heal. It helps keep him from the distractions of his physical body and allows God time to heal him. Please do not accept anyone telling you that he isn't there. He IS, and he knows you are too. Take it from me, miracles do happen. I'm living proof. And if God thought I was worthy of being saved, there is no doubt in my mind that someone as faithful as Cody and the family will receive a miracle too! If there is anything at all you need, or anything I can do, please let me know!! You all are in my prayers, and I just keep saying them over and over!

  6. Alicia, I just heard about your son this week, and have been sent this address today. I am praying for you all, as are many others, and it sounds as if good progress is being made. I'm sure that your son has felt your love wrapped around him through all this.
    Love and prayers,
    Linda Caywood