Friday, April 16, 2010
A mom's fight
NOOOO NOOOO NOOO I will not accept that he won't come back to me. I can't . As I posted yesterday the feeling of complete overwhelming sadness and being lost got worse when we received the news that the neurologist felt that there was very little chance for Cody to wake up, I have noooo words that can describe how devastated I was . He just needs time. I know he knows i'm there, he moved his jaw and it looked like he tried to swallow , his blood pressure goes up when I talk to him so I can only do it when they are doing things to him since he doesn't like it when they mess with him!! This has to mean something!!! I refuse to believe that these sign are not Cody. The girls have been reading me the posts from yesterday and I can't stop the tears from rolling down my cheeks, I ve cried buckets of them , GOD IS GOOD and the prayers are definetly being felt, but don't use them on me PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE give them to my little man. I can't lose him. Thank you Brenda Almond for the painting that Cody did of Christ. It's sits by his bed. My soul is weary but my faith is strong, the Lord is the only one I will allow to tell me that Bubba is gone. PLEASE PLEASE keep praying he needs them sooooo very much right now. The gift that God gave me 20 years ago is touching thousands of lives and it truely amazes me. I always believed in God's power but seeing it is an amazing experience. We love each and every one of you. Thank you for what you are doing for us.