How are we?

We started the blog mainly so we didn't have so many people trying to call or text each of us asking for updates on Cody. Those calls have definitely slowed down because of it. But today it seems like I've been getting many texts and messages on Facebook asking how we are, as a family. I just keep telling everyone that I'm hanging in there. Cause that's really all I'm doing. None of us have gotten much sleep the last few days and not eaten very much either. I know I know, I can hear you all now! Trust me, we know we need to eat. I eat at every meal but not a whole lot don't have much of an appetite. Sleeping is hard to do when your mind goes from thinking about Bubba to a prayer. Tonight the nurses have told us not to come in. They want Cody to get as much rest as possible tonight. They don't want us stimulating him at all. They also want us to get as much rest as we can because Cody is going to need all his and our energy in the coming days. This is the hardest thing for me to do. I can't get myself to leave this waiting room. I know it's what's the best for Bubba but it's so hard for me. I feel horrible for leaving him alone. I pray that tomorrow is the day that I walk in that room and all I see is those baby blue's staring at me and him asking "where have you been"?! I know it is all in God's time! I keep telling myself that. People keep sending us bible verses and they are so reassuring.

So when you want to ask us "How are you guys doing" please go and listen to this song. I know most of you have heard it. It plays on The House alot. Jessi and I seen them at Winter Jam. This song by Tenth Avenue North-Hold My Heart tells exactly the emotions that we are going through. Jessi and I heard this song today and immediately knew it was meant for us to hear. Please go listen to the song and pay attention to the words. I ask God to hold my heart. How long must we pray, How long must we wait? I know God is in control but the fear of the unknown is still a problem I face.

Please continue to pray. I have heard about so many people praying and asking others to pray. I wish we could express to you how grateful we are for those prayers. I want to hug each of you! I won't be making another update until morning since we won't see him until morning. Don't stop praying.